A Big Step Forward
On change… when nothing is certain
Change is hard. No one can deny that. But change can be good and exciting. Right now I’m taking a step forward in life and I’m hoping it will be a great new experience. I’m not going to lie though; I’m pretty scared. Hi, my name is Ruby Crawford, and I’m switching schools during the COVID-19 pandemic of 2020.
I’ve switched schools in the past, but this time it feels different. It might be because I’m five years older than the last time I switched schools, or it might be because we are living through a pandemic.
I’ve been going to St. Martins for the last five years, and I’ve made some pretty close friends that I’m not quite ready to lose. My life has changed drastically from when I first joined St. Martin’s, but the change has been gradual. This is a very fast change that I wasn’t prepared for. I hadn’t put much thought into leaving before, but as the last day approached I realized how much I was losing. I was losing friends, teachers, and other classmates that have helped me through so much and who have watched me grow as a person. I just want to give all of them a hug and say thanks for al they’ve done, but because of this pandemic and social distancing I can’t.
I also realized that we aren’t little kids anymore. I mean, we are when compared to adults, but still. Making friends is hard now. We can’t just look at a person and become best friends within the span of 10 minutes. This is hard to accept because last time I switched schools, I made so many friends so quickly. With no way of knowing how my new school is going it handle this new way of life, I’m honestly a little terrified. I’m losing so much, and I don’t know how much I’m going to gain considering I don’t know any body there.
I think I might be ready for this change though. Sometimes you just have to take a step forward and never look back. I am going to look back. It will be hard not to. My school has taught me so much and given me so many valuable things in the last five years. I’m so thankful to have this new experience and opportunity. Life is full of change, and 2020 has sure taught me that. I have to take this new chance and make the most of it.
So Lusher, watch out: I’m on my way. 2020 is going to be my year. Take that, corona.